Self Reflection

Getting to Know Me - El

I would like to emphasize self-reflection on our blog because I feel it is genuinely so important. With this year coming to an end, it might be cliché, but it is a perfect time to, rather than dwell on the past, consider your self-growth throughout 2021.

Although I am aware that I have such a long journey ahead of me, I do congratulate myself for coming a very long way this year. I am known by many as a passionate, kind, and content person on the surface. While that is still true to me, as a current sophomore in high school, I have realized that you truly can never see a person's mental health. During my teenage years, it was so much easier to lose perspective than I had anticipated. I have lost perspective many times in the past, and I have let that distorted view of myself and the world get the best of me. I have, in the past, lost touch with the attributes that make me me. But what I have yet to do is let those hard times define me. I have never not put up a strong fight.

I have been in the healing process for almost a year now, and I have come so far. While I think what has helped me through are the beautiful people in my life and the relationships I cherish so dearly in my heart, no one can truly heal yourself but you. And though I do often struggle with imposter syndrome and believing the legitimacy of my successes, I do feel proud of myself.

Finding purpose is another internal struggle that I deal with on a daily basis, and it was actually in a discussion with my therapist upon that very issue when she suggested I start this blog. I loved the idea so much, but I am a bit of a perfectionist, so I procrastinated it until the moment I realized perfection is not what this blog is about. That brought me to another realization: do not procrastinate something that you want to accomplish in fear that it will not be perfect. Start now.