Self Reflection

Getting to Know Me - El

I would like to emphasize self reflection on our blog because I feel it is genuinely so important. With this year coming to an end, it might be cliché, but it is a perfect time to rather than dwell on the past, consider your self growth throughout 2021.

Although I am aware that I have such a long journey ahead of me, I do congratulate myself for coming a very long way this year. I am known by many as a passionate, kind, and content person on the surface. While that is still true to me, as a current sophomore in high school, I have realized that you truly can never see a person's mental health. During teenage years it is so much easier to lose perspective than I had anticipated. I have lost perspective many times in the past, and I have let that distorted view of myself and the world get the best of me. I have in the past lost touch of the attributes that make myself me. But what I have yet to do, is let those hard times define me. I have never not put up a strong fight.

I have been in the healing process for almost a year now and I have come so far. While I think what has helped me through are the beautiful people in my life and the relationships I cherish so dearly in my heart, no one can truly heal yourself but you. And though I do often struggle with imposter syndrome and believing the legitimacy of my successes, I do feel proud of myself.

Finding purpose is another internal struggle that I deal with on a daily basis, and it was actually in a discussion with my therapist upon that very issue when she suggested I start this blog. I loved the idea so much, but I am a bit of a perfectionist, so I procrastinated it until the moment I realized perfection is not what this blog is about. That brought me to another realization, do not procrastinate something that you want to accomplish in fear that it will not be perfect. Start now.